i'd rather pick flowers than fights.

my fellow guy friends/tumblr followers, i need your advice. this shit’s fucking long.

so, me and this guy have been talking since i first got to italy. we’ve known each other for three years now but we just started physically dating (like going on dates, not boyfriend girlfriend shit.. ugh i hate how things always need to be labeled for people to understand LOL) once i came back around mid-may. so things were really good, we talked pretty much every single day while i was in italy unless i didn’t have wifi because that was my only means of communication then. he actually used to text me while i was in italy too and i thought that was awesome of him.

everything was great and we were moving so fast at first, like we were seeing each other all the time and talking to each other everyday still in the beginning. and when we saw each other, we used to hug and quickly kiss and go on with what we planned on doing. for the last couple of weeks, after this one day we spent together, we stopped doing that. like we would meet and just go onto what we planned on doing.. SO, that leads onto my next thing about what happened that one day. we were shopping for a blazer cus he wanted to look nice for his best friend’s birthday and he didn’t know his size and the sales associate came over and asked if we needed help and i said yes, can you please measure him because he doesn’t know his size? and he rolled his eyes at me and i’m just thinking in my head like woops. lol oh well. cus i didn’t think it was that serious. and then after that, he literally just had a snappy comment for literally everything i had to say to him. so i was just like alright maybe i really annoyed him and overstepped my boundaries and he’s just in a shitty mood today and we talked about it when he was walking me to davis square. he told me he was just caught off guard when i did that and all this shit that i didn’t wanna hear (all i wanted to hear was that i annoyed him and for him to be completely honest with me)

seriously, after that day, things have been fucking so inconsistent. like he doesn’t talk to me like that anymore. he only hits me up when he’s drunk telling me he misses me. i was gone for a week cus i went to NY and westerly and he only hit me up TWICE before i had to hit him up and the conversation literally went nowhere. and yo, yesterday i hit him up telling him that i felt some type of way and that we needed to talk and literally for the first time in the past couple of weeks, he acted like he even gave a shit about me like “is everything okay? are you alright?”

i’m not being crazy either cus i give him his space, i haven’t seen him in like almost a week and a half now.

is it a fucking crime for me to want consistency and the truth? guys, what do you think? there’s so much more to this but i don’t feel like typing it all out in this post. but i can assure you that i’ve been the one whose been upfront about everything and i feel like he’s just being nice so he doesn’t hurt my feelings. but i’m not a little baby bitch so i don’t understand why he wouldn’t just tell me that he’s not attracted to me anymore or something, you know? i would just move on and stop wasting my fucking time.